In love.

I am in love. This is my love. Jane Austen. Pride & Prejudice. Mr. Darcy. The wit and charm of the Bennett sisters. The time period, the sociality, the clothing. I love it all. I think it's because it's one of the purest, cleanest, most satisfying love stories ever. (I may or may not be watching it in the background as I type.)

The other day, we were discussing which era we would live in if we could choose, and I said the time of Pride & Prejudice (a.k.a. the British Regency period). We began discussing the good and bad of the time period, and I couldn't see much of the bad. I just love it so much.

Then today, something struck me as I sat in church. Elizabeth Bennett's life was not perfect, nor was that time period perfect. I tend to think that I'll be happy there, or then, or when. But I realize that it's a matter of just being happy where you are with who you are. 

That is my goal. I struggle to just be happy and love who I am and I know it has injured (or ended) relationships. I am currently working hard to reach that point that I can have a healthy relationship, but it's a work in progress. I'll let you know how it goes.